This morning I woke up feeling blessed. I had one little curled up next to me in bed, and another curled up next to us in her toddler bed. I couldn’t help but smile thinking about how amazing it is that God chose me to be their momma. I reached over and rubbed the biggest little’s back, and kissed the littlest little’s head, and just took it in.
Fast forward thirty minutes. I was in the kitchen trying to get everyone breakfast, being pulled in every direction. The sun was shining in the window, a toy fell on the floor, a little brother was bugging a big sister. “Moooooom!” was being yelled every ten seconds. Some of that magic from earlier this morning started fading away.
M didn’t like the oatmeal with the strawberries, so I made scrambled eggs, that sat on the table untouched. B threw his eggs all over the dining room and smeared strawberry juice all over the kitchen floor. Some more of that magic from earlier this morning started fading away.
It’s so easy to feel so blessed in the early, quiet, peaceful hours of the day, but what I really need to work on, is feeling blessed in the midst of it.
Don’t get me wrong, there is not one second ever that I am not thrilled to be their momma, but there are seconds when I want to pull my hair out and scream. There are seconds when they push me to the very edge of sanity. And it is in those seconds that I want to be able to stop, look at them, and embrace the blessing of being their momma.
I can’t guarantee that I won’t lose my patience, or raise my voice. What I can guarantee is that I will be trying my hardest to find the blessings in the chaos.
So, mommas, I want you to join me. When you are feeling down and defeated. When your children are pushing you. When you think you might just snap if you hear “Mooooom!” one more time. Find a blessing. Remember why in the early, quiet, peaceful moments of the day it is so wonderful. Remember that God gave you this amazing job of bringing up these amazing little people. And feel blessed.