It has been a long time since I last posted. My aunt asked me why, and my mom answered for me “because she has found her balance.”
I may not be perfectly balanced. There are dishes in my sink and laundry is piled up. I have a to do list. And I never get everything done that I want to. The difference between now and two years ago is that I have finally figured out that we aren’t meant to get everything done.
I have learned how to prioritize, and to not feel guilty when I just can’t do it all. I have learned to make time for myself to do what gives me life. One of these things is spending time in the word every day. In doing so I feel as if my life is as balanced as it ever will be. Yet, I am still finding lessons wherever I go.
Last night I went with some family to see Miracles From Heaven. This movie tore at my heart strings in every way imaginable. If you haven’t seen it, I won’t ruin it for you, but I am going to share a big question it made me ask myself.
Over the last year I have really been moving forward in my faith journey. I have been getting to know God in a whole new way. I am stronger in my faith now than I ever have been in my life, and it feels really good. I feel pretty confident in myself, that I am gaining ground as a Christian. I am learning more, and sharing what I am learning with others. I am putting my trust in God, where in the past I would have taken on the whole burden myself.
Watching this movie last night, especially knowing that it was a true story, I had to ask myself something. Would I have the same amount of faith in God if things were going badly?
If one of my kids got hurt or sick, would I still trust in Him?
It is so easy to trust in His plans for you when things are going smoothly in your life. It’s easy to say “I know God loves me, look at all he has blessed me with”. But what about the trials? Where would your faith stand then?
I would love to say that my trust would be just as confident then as it is now, but I honestly don’t know.
I watched this mother lose faith. I watched her not understand why bad things were happening. But at the same time, her daughter’s faith never waivered. I want to be like that little girl. I want to always trust. I want to teach my children to always trust.
There was an Albert Einstein quote used in this movie that I will keep imprinted on my heart. “There are only two ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle.”
Let’s choose the latter.